Learning to 'be.'
Updated: Aug 11, 2022
Open hands, open heart, open spirit...
In the holistic classroom of life, the inner journey of my soul has continued.
Finding myself settled in Liverpool, there has been so much to learn and so much more to glean.
The house I’m staying at is laced in wisdom - ancient wisdom. It's beautiful.
The owner, with the most generous of hearts shared some before she left.
Kindness.
What kindness was extended.
Alone and wanting nothing more than to embrace, embody and grasp that wisdom, I’ve found I’m learning to breathe again, to see again. Still, sometimes I can’t.
Burning incense, seated by pillows, listening to bells, there I breathe. I let my body be, give freedom for my mind to be.
Feeling the vibration, opening my eyes I’ve noticed such beauty in the rising incense. Dancing with the melody, smoke patterns form in surrender.
They’re beautiful.
Mesmerising, I’ve watched how different tones change the smoky dance. So in tune with the vibrations in the atmosphere, the incense rides the sound waves, dances on them.
I'm learning the beauty and power in surrender.
Quieting my soul, breathing for stillness, I've been surrendering to the moment. My head at times throbs, I’ve felt such fatigue in my bones - the weight I’ve carried so long in my heart… I’ve finally been sitting with the exhaustion that's threatened to take over, that has been taking over.
At long last I'm starting to be grateful for my body, my mind and my soul - the being that has beared such unseen weight for so long. I've consciously tried to stop punishing it.
Asking for forgiveness I've had no real knowledge of just how much it's been doing for me, just how much it's withstood.
For so long I would condemn it for not fulfilling my expectations. Feeling betrayed by it’s inability I've been blinded by it's extraordinary ability.
No longer wanting to fight myself, it's time to finally find myself, to love myself, to ‘be’ myself.
I am finally learning the art of having open hands, an open heart, and open spirit for myself first. Finally seeing surrender not as an act of weakness, but one of extraordinary courage. Slowly I'm walked the path less travelled, the path of the untethered soul.
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